I'm off to Canada tomorrow to join David for eight days after his conference concludes.
Having never travelled overseas before, it's beyond exciting.
I think back to when I was 25 and I remember laying in bed in misery in one of the more sad and trapped moments of my marriage. Of course there were good moments but years of unemployment, emotional unrest and self esteem eroding turmoil, dependency and pseudo monogamous castle walls had me feeling locked and lost to my goals. I remember thinking I would never have a job I liked, a relationship I liked, travel or have a family. Adventures and fulfilment felt like things for other people. The certainty of it was too weighty to adequately convey.
And now I have a job I'm passionate about, a relationship that fulfils me to the moon and back, I'm going on a really big adventure tomorrow, and we are planning a family. I'm also well, functional, have community and savings.
It seems unreal that I have these things. But I know I've paid my pound of flesh in pain and personal work to have them; no silver spoon in this mouth.
I'm full of nervous energy and double checking of lists and as Cassie said, I won't relax until I sit down on the plane.
Photos to come as I explore the country of my best love.